Missing my mother

Sometimes while studying in evening , I say -"Mummy chai dena " , the very  next moment  I realise, I'm in my hostel room, and home is a long way away.It's been nearly 5 months since I moved from Varanasi to this  University for my plan B.

When I was coming here there was tears in my mother eyes, and I felt nothing. I wasn't even felling sad, I was felling nothing.I was self-pitying  myself for being a bad son.I was questioning myself is this so much easy to move out and leave your parents behind and  that home where you lived 18 years of your life. So i was like that moving out is so easy. It's just overhyped.

But From last month, somedays  in evenings, night when I go to sleep,I feel a void inside me, is this felling is called homesick?. Today on HOLI 

,it all went to peak, i was with my friend abhay in cafeteria around 5pm,for  the first time in my life i cried in front of my friend , because i was missing my mother so badly i wasn't even able to control my emotions. What was i missing, the unconditional love that my mother have for me.Her presence is enough for me to feel complete. I called her and cried on the phone and she was also in tears, but somehow she managed me to calm me down, Its like the  same as she used to do in childhood.

Guys, I am sharing this with you guys, because if any of you are felling this type of emotion, then don't think that you are alone, we all feel the same, If you are homesick call to your mother and tell her that you miss her . Don't try to keep things by yourself it creates a mountain of emotions, tell her and ease out your feelings